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Voice- Distorted and Scrambling

[playfultyrant]

Hello, Rodimus.

Despite everything... Despite the path I've chosen. I wanted to thank you, for keeping the option open...

It is more than a lot have given me here.

I wonder if some way I regret it. In some way I felt I had to be this monster out of obligation or pressure.

Does it warrant excuse, no...

but... you have been so kind to me, Rodimus. And I miss the touch of your hands.

I know I can not be forgiven but it changes nothing of my feelings for you.

[livefastdieyoung_taao]

Megatron!

[ This is not what he expected from today. Of course, it can't be said that he expected anything. He's been mostly just coasting through after All Of That but this... hearing from Megatron certainly wasn't in the cards. ]

How are you--? You're not--!

[ Megatron shouldn't be able to contact the ship if he had followed the reports right. Not that he isn't glad to hear from Megatron--a vast part of him feels relief for the familiarity even if he knows, he knows, that he shouldn't be relieved at all--but he's just surprised. ]

Why did you do it, Megs?

[ Why did Megatron do any of it? The experiments, the lies, the psychological torture; the list could go on and on but Rodimus forced himself to stop. To not think that far past the surface. Things were already bad enough, he could feel it itching under his plating; there was no need to poke the sleeping bear as the humans would say. ]

[playfultyrant]

[ The distortion is crackling static, slurring his words. ]

I have my ways... That pathetic Unicronian Parasite on the ship did one good thing for me... Sideways is gone and will likely never return here.

But... in honesty. I am growing limitless. Do you know what that does to your mind, Rodimus... the flitted process of becoming too powerful for your own good... This is the price I pay for trying to tame Unicron as a pet and base.

Corpse or not... I overestimated myself and now my overestimation is becoming reality... Rodimus.

I wanted to test my powers and fix those around me... but there might never of been anything to fix.

[livefastdieyoung_taao]

[ Sideways? Rodimus has only heard the name in passing. He wasn't even aware that Sideways had left the ship.

He's been busy and the ship is large but...

It still feels like he should be able to keep track. Just like he kept track of everyone he lost on the Lost Light. People he still hasn't had the chance to see because the Space Bridge hasn't brought them around. If it ever does.

But that's not the important part. The important part is that Megatron is talking as if he's... Almost as if he's tired. Angry, but tired.

He's going to brush over the "using Unicron" bit because yeah that's just a typical Tuesday for a Megatron. Rodimus helped beat Unicron once, he'd do it again if he had to. ]

I know you wanted to help, Megs.

[ That much, at least, he is certain on. All Megatrons originally wanted to help. ]

Having that much power... It does something to a mech. I get it. Why else do you think I run from being a prime so much? Ain't no mech from skid row supposed to be a Prime, least of all me. It's easy to put up the mask, to deflect and act. It's a lot harder to admit when you're wrong.

Back on the Lost Light, 'fore we jumped universes, there was a mech I hated so much I let it blind me to everything else going on. I thought if I could just get rid of him, and get my ship back, I could fix everything that had gone wrong. I was wrong with that assumption, and it almost got my entire crew killed.

A leader has to know when to stop, Megs. It's the most important thing I've learned, I think.

[playfultyrant]

[ Isn't this what you want, Megatron. Someone to listen and understand. The way the words reach for him and circle in his audials... Echoing. "A leader has to know when to stop."

The white noise of pure hope for him to change and turn around.

Why instead does it graze instead like a knife. He's getting what he wants. He's getting exactly what he wants here!!!

UNDERSTANDING!!! HOW DARE HE!!!

But at least the voice that comes through broken sound is not rumbling like a god in the sky. No matter how much he wants to demand anger. ]

You are going to get yourself killed with your kindness, Rodimus. And I do not want to see that happen to you.

Least of all from me... We know the inevitable. Do you truly still see that path open for me to come back. And if I did. Who would welcome me but you and the small collection of loyal friends.

They rest aboard would turn on you in an instant...

Hahah... isn't it though... the fate of any hero. Be they Primes or otherwise. To reach hand to spare the damned their pain.

How dare you conflict me.

[livefastdieyoung_taao]

[ Rodimus smiles despite himself. Confliction. Yeah, he's always been good at causing confliction. ]

I think I told you once that another Megatron killed me, didn't I? Shot me straight through the spark and left me floating in space. I remember thinking "this is what I deserve for what I did to my home." Only the matrix saved me.

Every day since I've questioned why. Why would it choose me?

I didn't look up to OP. I hated how Megatron handled things. I felt belittled and useless and lost and afraid and then I was handed power on a silver platter with a sign that said "you can fix it all".

But that's not how it works, is it.

My spark spins because something else decided I wasn't done. My spark spins in spite of who's energon is on my hands.

I have learned that there is always hope for better. It was a hard won lesson. I had to break the known laws of physics to get a happy ending for my crew. At least, that's what Brainstorm and Preceptor said.

I can't say that people won't be mad with you. Won't hate you. You made choices, and you know they weren't good ones. I can't say that people won't constantly spit on your name and wish you dead. But you can do and be better.

What happened to that Megatron you told me of? The one that wanted to make things better on Cybertron? When did you lose your way?

I know you're still him. Can still be him. It just takes effort, and time, but Primus Megs, we've got nothing but time here.

You need help, Megs. And I know I ain't qualified to help in the same way Rung is, but I know... I know youre scared of finding out who you are beneath all of that bravado you put on.

I see through you, even this far away. I'm not afraid of you killing me. I'm afraid of giving my spark to someone that won't stop running.

[playfultyrant]

Rodimus... I... think my connection is scrambling... I must recharge. I've used up so much energy just to speak to you personally in this way...

I don't know.... if I like what is under everything... I don't know if I can stop running...

I... will take what you said to mind... and hope this power growth does not erode me further.

[livefastdieyoung_taao]

[ Running again. Rodimus sighs and doesn't know if he hopes Megatron can hear it or not. ]

I'll wait for you, Megs, as long as I can. But I mean it. You have to stop stop running. I won't be able to chase you forever.